Going through my follow list, I felt like there were just too many under-appreciated artists I miss. So please check these guys out too! : )

I want to feature some artists today who I believe are really underrated! Some of them are friends of mine, some of them I just follow. All of them have (imo) under-appreciated talent and I think people should give them a look, if they are looking for new artists to follow ^o^


Famous for her pony art, but I generally just really love her style. At first glance it's a little stereo-typical anime, but imo she has one of the most humble and captivating anime styles I've seen. Also her expressions are fantastic. Moe and unique~!



I've known Fire for a while and I always thought her art was underrated. Her style is really unique and wonderful, and her work is really clean and detailed.



P-prodigy. Amazing linework and details.



Soft, humble style! Lots of pastel colours and cute couples!



Amazing, soft lineless style!! I love her work so much. Simple yet so so captivating!



AKA MangoTango (lol) a very good friend of mine who does amazing moe/shoujo type work. Very colourful and bright.



I've been following her for 8 years now (w-wow;; ) and her style has changed dramatically. She has amazing traditional skills~ Every piece has it's own unique charm. <3



Another girl I've known for awhile who's style has changed dramatically! Moe, but still has a really traditional/mori feel to it, although it's all done digitally.



A really great friend of mine~ she is amazing at multiple styles, whether it be realism/cartoon/anime, she does all three very well, and they all have their unique charm! I love all of her work no matter what it is. (It was so hard to not pick a ton of pictures for this one, haha////)



She does a lot of pony work for Welovefine, but her way of replicating realism is amazing. Her colours and lighting, are just godly, really.



Thought I'd throw this bb in here too. She's working on an otome game right now (visual novel for girls). She's a really hard worker and her stuff is really cute~



Really moe-moe style. Nijiiru has potential to be a really great artist, I can't wait to see what her work looks like in a few years from now!


Thank you for looking!

Hey guys~ just popping in to say I was able to snag a table last minute for AX(AnimeExpo) 2013. So, I will be in the artist alley. I'm not sure where yet exactly, but I will be there!
I will only have my large prints, medium prints, and portrait prints. Maybe books. I wont have any buttons.

Hope you will stop by, thank you! \o/

Hi guys, my new online shop is now up~! I've opened it up in Storenvy. There are prints, posters, buttons, books, portrait prints, etc.

If you CAN'T pay by Paypal/VISA/online however, and wish to pay by cash through mail or check through mail, please contact me directly through note and we can work something out.
I really do need the money right now, and as of such, I will be opening up commissions next week as well. Thank you for all your support

>> GO TO STORE <<

I've been thinking about this for awhile, but, I'm now oceantan~

You're still free to refer to me as oceanchan or whatever, I still don't mind the name, especially considering I've had it for almost ten years now, I am very used to it. This was actually a really hard decision~!
But oceanchan is a little bit weeb, and oceantan is a little more subtle. But in the end, I'm still Ocean, haha uwu

And oceantan can work as like....... like.......tan on your skin. /CLEVER? idk

Yay for new beginnings. *U*/

Hello guuuys~~~! I'm back from AN! *0*/
Uhhhhh let's see, some really BAD things happened, some really GOOD things happened, and then everything in the middle was just kinda... the same??
I'll get the bad shit over with first, since it happened at the start of the con anyway. I have already bitched about it plenty on Tumblr tho, and Idgaf I'm going to bitch about it til I die.

So, bad news first:
I entered Anime North's "mascot contest", in which the winning entry gets a free table there. The rest of the entries, the con uses on their 'Anime North brand merchandise' (or w/e the fuck). I was aware of this and w/e I'm ok with it.
I got an e-mail after I entered, with the staff telling me they had "something in mind for my entry", and they wanted me to remove the background (the one I slaved away at, yay). For the record, this was my entry:

I said okay, but, I wanted to know what they were going to use it for specifically. I got a reply back saying, they'd "rather not say"............
So upon that, I said no, feeling it wasn't fair to have to edit my entry for something -they- were going to make money off of, and I couldn't even know what they were using it for.
So they said "fine, we will use it as is". So I felt good about this.

Now, this is probably the worst con experience I've had... ever? I went in to set-up my table, and I was a little late coming in, and I started to panic a little with all the people around. I guess I tend to get really nervous around people these days?? So I was like okokokok, just like, calm down take a deep breath and just sort your shit together. And as I got myself composed, I looked up, and ....STRAIGHT IN MY DIRECTION...at the merchandise table.. was my entry, on an apron, looking like this:


LOL FUCKING SUSHIIIII WHAT THE FUUUCK?? Q____Q'

Lol any efforts to compose myself just crashed and burned. I had never felt so angry in my life. I literally just paced around my table trying to catch my breath for awhile. I've honestly never felt so emotionally unstaaaaaaable. This contest has given me nothing but problems.
(Actually, thing is, I entered two entries this year, and they used the other one on their Facebook page and credited me by my real name when I told them specifically not to, and they have done that twice now, so like, wtf yeah)

In conclusion, there's no legal action I can take (not that I would want to anyway, I don't have the money and it seems like just a waste really), and the rules of this contest clearly state that any entries they get, by entering, you are "handing over your rights" to let them edit it or whatever. That's fine. But then why did they ask me to edit it originally if they were just going to do it anyway, whether I complied or not? And why say they would use it "as is"?
So yeah. I pretty much told them ~in a nice way~ that this is bullshit and I wont be joining the contest again, at least as long as it's under those regulations.

So that's the bad part.
I'll continue with the rest now!! uwu

Friday, I ended up tabling next to which is pretty cool since we *kinda* went to school together? And somehow ended up next to each other.
My outfit Friday lol:


The table~

I think it almost looks like ~cool~ with those two girls standing there somehow lol ahhaa;;;

Ah, another thing I got to do Friday, was go get Eriko Nakamura's autograph! She does Haruka's voice in Idolm@ster. And I got a photo~! I was so nervous ;;o;; But more on that later, actually! ~to be continued~


I hung out with Friday night. I think we... what. Ate and sat in the hallway? LOL /living the life/


Saturday was my loli day~ I went to the lolita photoshoot, and hung out with cadney and lanii in their hotel Saturday night. They were saying in the Double Tree... I had never been there before! What a nice view. I'd really like to get a room there sometime, pretty convenient ;; w ;;
My Saturday outfit:


I also met up with Saturday night for a little bit, she was nice enough to come hang out with me for awhile at the DT. ; u ; She was cosplaying Kuroneko, and looked so cuuuuuuute~~~
..........we also took pretty great selfies LSKFSG sorry I can't get over this


Sunday morning uhhhh how was I aliiiiive??...... God Idek how I'm still alive right now lol.
But ......the BEST thing about the WHOLE weekend happened today, and it made the whole con worth it. ;; w ;;
I was chilling at my table and Eriko-san was just sort of looking around, and the translator was with her who recognized me from yesterday. So, she ended up coming to my table, and she said she liked my work and my Sailor Moon picture and aaaaahhhhh omggggggg ;/////////o////////;!!!!!! I seriously regret not offering her free art now, I was so starstuck, ugh;;;;;;;
After she left I pmuch cried of happiness. LOL;; WAHH SHE WAS SO CUUUTE TT u TT;; Yeah that made the whole con worth it for me. ;u;

And this was my Sunday outfit~!


I literally bought next to nothing, like, a little plush, a bracelet, and a headband, bahaha. I'm... so in debt now I can't... like.. do..that.. speaking of debt (l-lol) I will be opening my print sale very soon in my storenvy; all of my prints should be up within the next few days! <3

By the end of the con, there were so many people I wanted to print trade with, but. I was too chickenshit to ask them?? (like...I am... every year bahaha)

Some people I met~! *^v^*

- I meant to come print trade with you, but the time I was doing my rounds I think your stand was down and I couldn't find yoooouuu gaahhh--!;; Maybe at Otakuthon uwu Hope to see you soon~
- bahaha omg /tells life story/ Thanks for chatting with me for the... one-two minutes that we did, you seem really cool and down to earth, yeaah!! ;//7//; ! <3 Thanks for trading with me! ///
&&& ...Like ultimate quartet of perfect art/cuteness?? You guys were always busy ahaha so I didn't really stop by much but it was nice seeing you~  ^v^
Baaahhhh cutiiiiiieeeeee THANKS FOR THE ERASER omg lifesaver haha /////~ ;w; Thanks for the print trade~!
omfg so cute i love you hahahaha ty for stopping by, you're great ;; v;;
=u= ily babe. thanks for stopping by so much<33 im so sorry to hear what happened about the prints-! . _. <3
I guess I didn't talk to many people this year, a lot of people I know didn't even go lol hm.

And ofc, met a ton of wonderful people who stopped by the table. You're all really so nice to me and so great and so sweet, and all I can really ever say is thank you! Honestly I probably said thank you like ten thousand times this weekend LOL;; Wahhh//////~

So yea! My print sale will be up in a couple of days

ANIME NORTH IS TOMORROW~~
I'm..... so........ scared.............???? Lol I'm nervous about how well I will do.
This is the new print line up I have for this year~



A few people asked, and yes, I will have my old Pony prints year. They are very limited though. This will probably be the last con I am selling them at, so this is your only chance to get them~
And for now, here's a few pics of my crunch time!! >u<;;





As I said before, I lucked out and somehow got a great spot this year! I'm at A16 this year.
I'll be right in front of the dealer's room entrance - or exit - depending on how they set it up this year. I'm facing a wall, either way. LOL;;



See you guys soooooooon!!! *U* I'll take tons of pics and make an update after the weekend!

Hello, just helping promote my friend's girlfriend's fuck buddy's romantic interest, *harukatsune, and some B1A4 keychains she's making! She does lots of k-pop art and it's all really cute and stuff so please check her stuff out~ ^0^-
Just don't check her out if you know what I mean. (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ

Preview:

Lol I keep getting birthday messages, so I think if I get that birthday thing off my front page, then maybe they'll die down. (￣ω￣; )

Here, have some WIPs.


Also, I finally watched Sherlock yesterday/today. I'm on the last ep now. ;_;

The fandom is a little scary… and I'm used to Sherlock as more of a scruffy man, less pretty boy (because I've seen the films with RDJ), and I also think that look suits his character more. So I'm not a huge huge fan of Cumberbatch. I feel like I'm looking at a Hipster Holmes. Still good though.
Not bad. Just… different.

I think I enjoy this Watson more than the films too, he's less tsundere, hahahahahahaha /shot
I also went into it expecting it to not be… modernized. So that caught me by surprise.

Other than that, good. ^0^ Well written, interest, deep, solid 8/10~
Maybe I'll do some fanart. But I don't think my art really fits it well. I'll give it a go, though!

Ok, have a good day!!! >v<

Today is my birthday! uwu



gpoy
I'm turning....... 12 again, somehow. I haven't gone to see the doctor about it yet as to why I don't age, but I mean, I'm sure it can't be a bad thing.

e u e

Every time I get gifts from people and I like keeping them all nice and concise together so I will be putting them all here!  ;;w;; Thank you guys so much~~!


Besides that, I really miss being more interactive with every one. >m< It's hard to find time on my own any more to livestream. I guess I have been spending a lot of my time on Tumblr. A lot of people have been asking for my private Tumblr and I can't seem to keep up with the notes QQ; So for a short time, here it is!

Umm.. I've been in such an art crisis lately. I'm not sure what I want my art to look like. I want to tone down certain things, but I also want to rebuild on it. So I'm sorry my art's been so confusing for awhile. I am just confused as an artist. Q__Q' It's really quite frustrating.
That being said I still have plenty of stuff to come.. I am just working on trying to be more original, maybe. I'm not sure. ;u;

ALSO, I will be opening commissions in June! People have been asking about them! (wao) So if you're interested in a commission, please have money ready by then. <3

Thank you always for your support

Hello guys o/
So I'll be at Anime North 2013. I was lucky enough to get a table in the first 50. Surprising.

(I don't have a table partner, but, I have been looking around for someone who has a table at AX that would share with me and I could split the half of my AN table with them! Please note me if you're interested.)

So I'm working hard on lots of prints right now >o<;! Mainly SAO and Adventure Time stuff right now, now that I have finished my ponies. Speaking of ponies....

A lot of people have been giving me their feedback on my "new" style compared to my "old" style. I am proud of it's more realistic attributes but, it just isn't me, really. Another thing with those pony prints is that I began them before I was put in the hospital, and I think the long break/sudden style change really made the style look "confused".
So, I've decided, I'm reverting back to my old ways of colouring. Not completely, but, I think I've finally found a nice balance. (I tried moreso in y Twilight picture, which I'll post Monday and you will see~)
But it is always exciting to try different things. I just need more bright shades, I need more happiness and sharp eye-blinding colours!! ineedthem!!
So after these pony prints are over, you will see more shiny-desu from me.  (◡‿◡✿)


What's weird is what people "critiqued" my work on, was what the majority of my fanbase liked anyway, I think. Funny how that works.





Now I am gonna go draw and watch Les Misrables and 2001: A space odyssey and Fear and Loathing Las Vegas and eat homemade sphagetti until I die.
^^^CHARA-CHANGE!^^^

Hello! o/ My reign has started!!(?) I'm pretty much completely back on my feet now, the only thing I cannot do well is run/jump/hold myself up. But I have been doing a lot of sitting on my ass making art. ^u^ d
Last year I made a lot of very bright shiny pony prints. I'm working on new ones this year, and they are actually turning out vastly different.



They're not quite as bright before.... which is what I actually liked about my art. It's weird. I was getting a lot of critiques on my style that I need to learn to "shade properly" and "tone down the brightness", and I've tried it, and I don't like it. Can I go back to the old way now?
I might really go back in on these and play with the colours. But feel free to let me know what you think!

All that being SAAAAID~~~ here's a closer look at some other things and when I plan to post them!



Every Saturday, I'm going to post a new Pony print, and at the same time take the 2012 one out of storage (since I know lots have been asking about that). I'm also working on two new Adventure Time prints and I might try for an SAO one too. ;u; I have a lot of work to do kfdjgflh.

Also, I have a table confirmed at Anime North 2013! I managed to get in first-come-first-serve, somehow..;;
I haven't been confirmed at AX yet though -- so I've been kind of keeping my eyes open for someone who a.) wants half of my AN table & b.) has a table at AX and would be willing to share with me. Like a traaaade. *u*;

Thanks everyone for having patience with me. \o/ New art is coming real soon~

First before getting onto the event news, I would like to thank the hundreds of people who have been sending me all these messages while I've been in the hospital. You have really helped me a bunch in my recovery. I hope to be back kickin' real soon. ^3^ (Hopefully getting out of here Sunday.)

As for the event...


The event is called "Before 12'O Clock", it's being held at The Annex WreckRoom (794 Bathurst St) in Toronto, Canada, on May 3rd!
The event highlights the sweet side of Japanese fashion; eg. fairy-kei, sweet lolita, magical girl style, idol fasion, or "any mixture of your choice to show off your signiture look~ ♥" Those attending are encouraged to dress up!

:: Before 12 O'Clock :: event schedule
- Pinkly Ever After Fashion Show
- Photoshoots
- Harajuku Fashion Panels
- Music
- Live Performances
- Flea Market
- Indie Brand Sales Stands
- Auctions
- Prizes

Those who attended Anime North may be familliar with Pinkly Ever After as they are the same girls who are in the local idol group "Pinku Project" and performed there last year.

The most exciting news (for me, haha) is that not only was I invited to sell my art there, but also perform there~! (ノ＞▽＜。)ノ;;;; So yes, I will be part of the "live performances", haha........
I'll be singing 4 songs sometime between 10pm~11pm. (If you are interested in listening to my singing, I have some posted on my blog, here, lol: [link] I'm not the best singer in the world, but, I like it, and I think that's enough. >7>;
I am going to try and learn a little bit of dance routine too. o////A////o;;;;;;
I am a very shy person but singing in front of a crowd has always been a dream of mine. I wont be a pro, but, I'll do my very best. （*/∇＼*）
For those who wont be able to make it, I'll try to get a recording of my performance.;;;;;;

See more info on the Facebook page here!

Haha, when Robin first asked me if I wanted to sing for the event... I was like........

Pretty much. Since it's my dream. (◡‿◡✿)
It was just a DREAM, though, it was something I've never really worked on, or worked towards, so it's something I thought I'd attain. ;; I'm going to be going into without any proper training or anything. ;;; I'm gonna be freaking nervous omg.

Anyway, the event over all is going to be really cool, a lot of big "lolita" & "fashion" names are going to be there including Cadney, Criic, and Tempest Paige. ^u^ Other performances will also include Berry Risa (from Pinku Project), Baby Sugar, Dokidoki Hime, and possibly Yukapon if she is able to make it.
Very exciting ｡：ﾟ(｡≧▽≦｡)ﾟ･｡

Thank you for reading! \o/

Yeah... I know right.

I was dispatched from the hospital January 25th, and I was doing absolutely fine. What pisses me off the most is I JUST went for my follow up appointment with the surgeon Friday - everything was perfect - and the very next day I got an infection. What the fuck.

When I started feeling the pain Saturday I pretty much freaked out. I was so angry. In all honestly I've probably suffered from more psychological trauma then any physical pain. After I went home in January, I was starting to feel bouts of paranoia; like I'm very convinced I'll have health problems constantly for the rest of my life. Because that's how it has been so far.

Just when I was starting to feel better and shake off the feeling of paranoia; right when I was starting to feel a bit better, this happened, and I needed to go back to the hospital. I was fucking furious, and scared; I'm actually at the point where I'm worried about my actual lifespan, just because I'm so paranoid. Not to mention all the CT scans I've had in the past month and how much radiation I've been exposed to.

The worst part of this is just how much I've lost grasp of my rational mind. I'm fully convinced that my future health will be bad and my family and friends haven't been able to make me feel otherwise, even if that's the way I'd like to think myself.

Any....way, I didn't actually mean to get into the actual psychological side of it SIGH. But here's the physical!

Turns out where my intestines were sewn up, a little hole has broke, or something like that, so what happened was a lot of the waste inside leaked out into the rest of my body.......... Gross.
Luckily I went into the hospital only an hour after the pain started instead of waiting a bit so I think I caught it fairly early. I've been on antibiotics for about 2 full days, and I've noticed some improvement in my movement so I think they're working. But I don't want to be too hopeful... Last time that happened I GOT AN INFECTION, LOL

My alternate options (if the antibiotics don't work) are absolutely disgusting so I don't even wanna talk about them lmao. I just pray these antibiotics will do the trick. If all goes well, I should be out of here by the end of the week.

I would also like to give a shout out to all my friends in Underboob (which is what we call our little group lmao) who have really been helping me through this. (All their icons are at the bottom of the journal) ILY guys with all my heart TuT

I'm going to end this journal off with some good news! Anybody who lives in the Toronto (Canada) area and who is interested in sweet Lolita/fairy kei/Japanese fashion, I will be taking part in a very cool event happening early May. It's very very exciting, aha, not only will I be selling my art but I will also be performing (singing) there. I wil give lots more info in my next journal entry so please stay turned *___*

Love you guys u v u. And thank you always for the constant support!

P.S. I've been usin my Twitter more lately so you can follow me there if you want. Also I'm aware I still have a lot of notes to get back to on my private Tumblr, sorry about that~~~ soon soon

Hi everyone! It's been awhile. This post is a little important so I have a feeling im going to be making it a little long... Also, I'm doing it from my phone. So, there may be weird typos.

If you don't wanna read the whole thing here's a basic summary:
I left DA because of Internet hate which brought down my confidence; I got a lot of hate the same day I found out my grandfather died which really made it worse, I planned on coming back the beginning of January but I was hospitalized because of a bowel obstruction and I am still currently in the hospital and plan to come back mid February. Also I feel like shit.

Long version: I guess I'll start... With why I left. It's a really complex reason and I really hope everyone will understand, but I think there might be some people who just won't. And by that I mean, I am aware I have a handfull of followers who might feel neutral about my art rather than full out liking it. Or maybe I'm just talking about the people who don't really like my art at all.

What I'm specifically talking about is the people on artist-confessions. Oh yes... That blog. How do I even start with this. I feel sad for the people pinpointed on that blog. Im amazed just how many people really feel that way about my art. Not because I believe everyone should like my art or anything, but, just how passionate people are about mere HATING. You guys just love the drama. You guys just really love the trolling. I'm just flabbergasted that you really have nothing better to do, sometimes. It's like, whoa. All i do is make art, and some people treat it like... Not... That.

All that being said, I still take some of my trolls to heart. Some people come to back me up like "oh they're just jealous!" or "theyre just trolls and have nothing better to do!" and that could be true for some people, but! Some of the trolls do have some worthy things to say about my art. Like, the thing is, they insult my art, but they're right. I have a lot of problems with my art. I'm very aware of it. And a lot of the things that AC tackles, (and by AC I mean the confessions themselves, plus the anon comment section) I take it all to heart. I take all my critiques to heart, and consider them all, even if theyre worded rudely.

Now that's where my problem lies eith AC. Some people do give good well rounded critiques. Others, do, but are just complete, fucking assholes about it.
Here's the difference.
"The problem with Oceans art is her shading, she doesn't have a definitive light source, and her colors are too bright."
"Ocean doesn't know how to do light sources, her shading is shit and the colors hurt my eyes I can't even look at them."

Though, I know some people would rather say the second example than the first. And that's part of the reason why I left DA.

Mid-December, I got a confession posted on that blog. Comments were the usual. The difference between this confession and the others I've gotten is that this confession was posted just when I had found out my grandfather died.

I had a lot f bad comments coming to me that day while I was dealing with my grandfathers passing. Usually I don't let those confessions hurt me too too bad, but this one kicked me down and I just couldn't feel better. I didn't want to draw at all. I became extremely self consious of my drawings, I thought everything I produced looked like absolute utter crap. Which is why I left. I didn't feel confident in anyone seeing any of my art anymore. I felt embarrassed of it, I felt like it was crappy and there were too many mistakes and I wasn't proud of it at all, and I didnt want anyone to see it. That's what AC did to me.

Drawing was supposed to be fun, and for a short while last moth, the Internet killed it for me. You can call me butthurt. But I don't think I really care. Im very, very human. And I have dozens of thousands people watching me and what I do and what I write and my opinions and my art -- and outside the Internet, I'm so so average, I am such a regular person just like anybody. So to have my every move practically just watched and judged nonstop id extremely stressful. When someones rude to me, I try to play it cool. Because of you lash out, you're a bitch. But then I'd you're sad about Internet hate, you're butthurt. You can't win this.  Must be nice to be anon. I'd like to see you try this without your grey face and 20,000+ watching and judging everything you say or do.

I'd just like to add I'm aware that AC has a blacklist. I've considered adding myself, but I'm not sure. /sigh/ I mean;; if I add myself, I'm "a pussy" or I "can't take critiques", if not, I get a lot of hate. I am stuck between as rock and a hard place.
And you know, to be honest, I was never actually bothered by the confessions themselves, most of them are pretty well rounded, it's just the anoncomments that just get stupid. Though a the same time I will say, I don't understand AC, I don't get why the confessor just comes to me, instead of plastering on the tabloids. It's immature IMO.

As for my actual art! I'm very aware of aaaaall of the problems it has. I'm working really hard to find a spot(a style) I can be proud of and enjoy, and have it be realistically correct. The thing I ask for from people, I think, is patience. Or some slack. My art isn't going to change over night. The problem with it, is that I've been drawing for about a decade, and I've been drawing - incorrectly. By that I mean.... One of my biggest problems is my shading. I was shading every article (skin, hair, clothes) with its own light source, rather than just giving the whole body s hard light source. And then of course there's my anatomy. I've been teaching myself that wrong, too. So I'm trying to relearn. Anatomy is hard, man. Cut me some slack if I can't perfect it in even a year.

So that's my art life. I had been having a pretty hectic personal life as well. I won't go into too much detail, but I do know this is something I want to share.
Two years ago, I met someone (not Ichi). My relationship eith this person turned.... Very confusing... This boy, had some problems I couldn't handle, I wanted to get out of it, but he was a little obsessive, a little manipulative, and I might even say it was a bit of an abusive relationship. But I don't hate him. I had feelings for him once, and I feel very sad for him, to know that he has certain anger, things like that, that he can't control. That went on for two years. I am finally getting out of it now. But I think it really took a toll on my art and Internet life because it was a big thing I was worrying about. So that's another thing I am finally getting out of the way.

Fast forward to present day.
It's really sad just how much bad luck I have. I originally planned to come back to DA this month, however, two weeks ago I was hospitalized and I've underwent two surgeries and intensive care and healing.

Three years ago, I got my appendix removed. It was a worse-than-usual-case, and I needed a portion of my bowels removed. Unfortunately, the piece of shit doctor I had sewed my bowels up into a twist. It took three years for my bowels to finally twist. It twisted in two spots. The official name for this is called s bowel obstruction. When I originally went in, I thought j had food poisoning. If only it just could've been that.

I underwent two surgeries. One to un-twist my bowels. The second was to remove my damaged bowels. I wasn't able to eat for over a week. I've been hooked up to nutrients and antibiotics for two weeks. I had a catheter in for a week and a half. Walking has been very difficult. I can't stand up straight. For the first week my catheter was plugged so my body was retaining so much water - I probably gained 30 pounds in my legs. It was absolutely disgusting. It really wasn't nice. And I had a really bad nurse too (for people following my tumblr you know the details of all that) plus I have this terrible trailer trash neighbor. God. I hate her. I've never been able to say I hate anyone before. But I hate this girl. She stayed up so loud on the phone bitching (she does this every day, about people stealing her "gold chains" idek), which cause complaints, and now nobody can stay late anymore. So my mom isn't able to stay late anymore, or my boyfriend. I hate this bitch. I hate her.

As for my actual stay here, I'm not going to lie, this is the worst thing I've ever been through in my life. Organ surgeries are te worst, especially when it's part of your digestive system.... Everything is so uncomfortable, I'm in so much pain every day, I'm so so depressed. My recovery is going so, so slow.

Above all, this is around the tenth time I've done this.
This isn't something I talk about often, but I have had many health problems throughout my life. I haven't gone three years, since the day I've been born, without going through surgeries. I've had four pacemaker surgeries, one open heart surgery, two lymph node removals (two because the doctor took out the wrong one first), my appendix surgery, and now this one, because my last doctor fucked up. I truly have the worst luck. When I was first admitted here, I didn't care about anything anymore. I have gone through this so many times I just didn't care; I think I was at the point where I'd rather die than go through another intensive recovery.

However, I've been here two weeks, and I'm recovering... Slowly. I've been crying every day and I've been really depressed but, I am still recovering. I guess I'm thankful this all happened before con season. I'll be all healed before that rolls around. And also,  Ichi and my mom have been here every day helping me. I don't think I could have gone through this without them. Especially Ichi (my boyfriend). He's my angel. ;/////;

So that's where I am at right now. I've been going through a lot. @v@' I really hope that I can get back to posting art regularly mid-late February. I miss being online and posting art for you guys and Livestreaming and everything. I'll never leave DA, so, no worries about that. I might take my breaks, but I'll never leave. I have too many people who look up to me, dear god, that's right!!!;;; when I left, I couldn't believe the feedback. Really, thank you guys. You all keep me going so much. And once I'm better and shit, I'll be back making more art! ;7;

Speaking of which, if you are a new follower, I have a yearly tradition where I do a request Livestream during the new year. Unfortunately I haven't been able to because of my hospitalization, but I still plan on it.

Thank you all for waiting, and reading, and etc. despite I get hate here and there, it's really all worth it for the amount of love I get in return. I couldn't have asked for better .... Fans. Followers? I really hate using the word "fans". e_e but yeah I couldn't ask for better ones!! I love you! ;/////;

I guess I'll see you all when I see you. Which I hope is soon. Thank you do much always. You guys really do make me feel like a million bucks.

Selling Anime/Lolita/Cosplay Items!

Hello guys~! I've been really dead here, but there is a reason, and I will probably fill everyone in on the details in the coming months. *___*;;;; After I finish my commissions (TWO LEFT NOW. Out of the 20 I started with) I'll be starting an online manga and making new videos for Youtube. I'm going to start a whole new artistic journey. I'm very excited. uwu Just gotta get my personal stuff out of the way... and there's a lot of it right now.

ANYWAY, I'm trying to get rid of a lot of my things (which is actually a big part of my problems... my 'hoard'...... but I'll talk about that..later), hence this sales journals. uwu I have lolita/cosplay items, and anime/manga stuff!

CONDITIONS:
-Everything is open for haggling, I guess? 'u'
-Paying is Paypal preferred, but I will take checks or money orders through the mail if need be.
-Please SEND ME A NOTE if you're interested. Whoever can give me their paypal address first has first dibs, however if more than one person is asking for the same thing I'll send up a waiting list in case the first person changes their mind/can't pay.
-Shipping costs will be calculated depending on where I am shipping it to and what you are buying. Heavier items (coats, books) will be more pricey to ship.


☆Lolita Stuff for Sale☆
^CLICK TO VIEW DETAILED SALES^

All my items are available for viewing on my Facebook. PLEASE don't add me; I don't add strangers, sorry. Thank you!
Items here:
Angelic Pretty Happy Candy Salopette - $240 OBO
AP REPLICA Sherbert Wappen Parka - $40 OBO
Mar Jour Kappa shirt - $12
Mar Jour Decora shirt - $10
Bodyline Bear House JSK (in blue) - $35
Nagi (Kannagi) Wig from Fantasy Sheep - $25 OBO
Bodyline Coat (pink) - $65
AP Milky-chan of the Fawn Coat REPLICA - $80 OBO
Feel free to ask for measurements! ^^


☆Anime Stuff for Sale☆
^CLICK TO VIEW DETAILED SALES^

All my items are available for viewing on my Tumblr.
Items here:
Nanoha Figma - $25
Yuki Nagato Witch Figma (Full Version) - $30
Moetan Artbook - $27
Nanatsuiro Drops Pure!! Character Artbook - $35
Megami March 2009 Unopened - $13
Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicle Shitajiki (Pencil board) - $4
Megami Magazines (All $8)
Megami Deluxe (English) - $10
Haruhi Suzumiya Songbook - $5
Revolutionary Girl Utena - Episodes 12-26 ($20)
Megami Super Deluxe Artbook ~ $35
Ton of Anime DVDs and manga for $5 each
Shugo Chara 2010 Calendar ~ $27
Megaman Official Complete Works (Unopened) - $40
ef -Tales of Memories- stick posters - $20
ToHeart2 'Manaka de Ikuno' Stick Posters - $40

Thank you!

Colouring Book Re-Release Preorder



Preview: [link]

Info/Includes:

Saddle-stitched
8.5 x 11 inches
+Intro/disclaimer
6 colouring (with copics) tutorial pages
over 35 single-sided colouring pages

Price

$20 USD

Shipping

$5.00 to Canada
$8.00 to US
$10.00 to International

Methods of payment I take

-Paypal
-Snail mail (cash, check, or money order through mail)

How to order

Send an e-mail with the subject "Colouring book" to oshaikeuchi@gmail.com:

-Name the payment will be coming from
-Country you live in
-How you can pay (one of the two methods above - if Paypal, please include your Paypal address)
-Any notes (if you'd like it signed, or if you'd like to include any further items from my online shop, meloncake.net)

FAQ

Q. How is this different from the last release of this book?
A. For one, the cover and the back cover is different. Also there is no more "version 1/version 2" differences; and now every version comes with the colour tutorial. It is also $10 from that previous version. Other than that the inside is the same.

Q. Do you ship internationally?
A. Yes, I ship every where worldwide.

Q. How does cash through mail work?
A. I only take American and Canadian cash through mail. I don't accept any other currencies, sorry.

Q. Do the pages work with copics/prismas/coloured pencils etc?
A. Yes, I've personally tested it (with copics at least). The paper is the same as regular printing paper. It IS thin though so you'll have to put a paper underneath so you don't ruin the page underneath it.

Q. When do pre-orders end?
A. September 30th.

Any other questions? Please ask!

Fan Expo 2012 Table Spot

Unfortunately I don't have a map......... ^7^; Anyway there really isn't much to it! I'll be at Fan Expo 2012 in the artist alley, at table A108 with !! <3 I guess my Finn x Flame Princess one is my only new print /SAD
I'll have aaaaall my pony stuff though. uwu Please come by and support!! <3 I wanna get rid of a lot of my prints.... I really want to start with a fresher, newer style *______*

Here's something I was working on last night........ I want to go for a more realistic style! (Colouring wise, not drawing) But I still want to keep lots of my bright happy colours too, unless there is a specific mood like in this picture:



I'd really like to start Carriers again soon............ or SOME sort of online manga. I want to become more dedicated to my art~~ sighh @@; And create more original pieces and be known for my OCs, and not fanart....
So with that being said, I'm going to need more time to work on personal projects. So I'll be closing my commissions in a month or so. So, commission me while you can. \ o / Thank you everyone for always supporting me and my work!

otakuthon 2012 Table Spot

I shall be tabling this year again with !! We are in the premium artist alley this year *7* Because frankly the artist display regulations were bullshit LOL. So this year we get to use my stand to the fullest, yayyy.<3

We got a pretty damn good spot this year!! Facing the dealer's room and everything. Super excited!
Please come stop by



I think once I get back from Otakuthon, or Fan Expo, I'll do a big journal entry about all my cons. xD Since I haven't even updated everyone about Anime Expo yet~ and that was very exciting.
'Til next time

You can see my commission Deviation for examples!:

General Rules
Whether you wish to commission me in copics or CG, please go over the important notes below before contact me, thanks~!
-All prices are in CAD/USD, whichever is more convenient to you. Refer to [link] if needed.
-The final price will depend on the amount of details/how much time it will take to complete -- if you want your chara to wear plain shirt and pants it will obviously be much cheaper than a detailed, lolita outfit, or if you want your chara in a specific pose or scene.
-There will be NO refunds unless I am the one canceling your commission.
-All commissions are for personal used only, not commercial purposes. You have the rights to your character but the rights to the image is still mine.
-I want the commission to be of the best quality I can produce, so please be patient with my pace.
-I will not start drawing until I've received full payment and reference of the character, NO EXCEPTIONS for ANYONE.
-Do not try and bribe me to get a higher slot. It's first come first serve.
-I'm willing to do fan characters, original characters, characters from anime... any character!
-I can draw girls, guys, animals, anthro characters, muscles. I cannot draw mechs, or aged people very well.
-Copic commissions will have a month wait time.

Poorman Commissions
Here is the difference between a 'poorman' commission and a CG commission:
-CG commissions are produced at a higher quality, there are several layers of shading, more details in hair/lighting/clothing etc, and more detail put in to the overall illustration.
-You can choose your pose/perspective with CG commissions. 'Poorman' commissions will have a basic standing pose. Also please refrain from requesting detailed/elegant clothing on 'poorman' commissions or I will have to dumb them down a bit.
-'Cheap' commissions are usually half the price of regular CG commissions.
-Visual example between "poorman": [link] and CG: [link]

**All prices start at one character only, and basic pose/patterned background if you request it.**

See [link] for examples.
Chibi - $5.00
Head - $15.00
Bust - $20.00
Waist - $25.00
Knees - $30.00
Full body - $35.00

CG ('Regular') Commissions
-I will give you a high-res version without a watermark.
-I can mail and sign(if you wish) a print of your commission for and extra $10.00.

**All prices start at one character only, any pose/perspective/atmosphere you want. Simple background/extra minor items are free. We can negotiate pricing if you'd like an extra character/detailed background**

See [link] for examples.
Chibi - $10.00
Head - $30.00
Bust - $40.00
Waist - $50.00
Knees - $60.00
Full body - $70.00

Other Commissions
I also do Copic marker commissions, and ero commissions.  You can see my price range & more info on these commissions on my 2011 prices: [link]
Please keep in mind that there is a month wait time for copic commissions, since they are not my main tool any more. But I will still use them if that's what you want ^^/

Payment/Contacting me
Paypal is the preferred method of payment, but I also take money order/check and cash through mail, just please be sure to conceal your money well.
If you're fine with these methods of payment, and want to commission me, please note me the following form, thank you!

Username:
Type: ("Flat colour bust"/"Poorman knee" etc)
Reference link:
Background:
Pose/expression/personality:
Anything else I might need to know:
Method of payment: (If Paypal, please give me your Paypal e-mail)

Thanks very much!